MusingsWithTime

For as long as I could remember, I have always loved words, writing and the idea of writing my thoughts down on paper. however, surprisingly I have never kept a journal consistently. I always felt my hands couldn’t write quickly enough to keep up with the thoughts and reflections in my head.

Then a few years back, I thought of writing on screen as i type relatively fast and with typing, that seemed like the logical solution to my problem. Then why you may ask have I not started writing a blog sooner than now? I guess there are several reasons, mainly the fact that I never felt I had the time to do so. However, I always knew that wasn’t really the reason for my procrastination with writing a blog. It had to do with fear……. fear of starting something new, fear of exploring my thoughts, emotions and ideas, fear of learning new skills. Mostly I realized it all boiled down to a deep seated fear of being vulnerable. When my thoughts, feelings and opinions were in my head, I had a sense of safety and control but to express them in writing would feel like being naked and exposed.

Today, I convinced myself to let my invisible guard down and allow myself to be vulnerable. To express my thoughts, emotions and ideas without anxiety or fear. There is power in being vulnerable and I hope to explore and gain that power. There is nothing to ashamed of in being naked.